Sunday, October 27, 2013
Where am I?
I've been sitting in Starbucks for almost 3 hours working on homework, when a thought just hit me: All those years ago, I imagined what my life would be like when I was a senior in college. It's really nothing like I imagined. I remember sitting in small group as a high school junior raving over what we would do to be in college and how much better our lives would be. Our small group leader Lizzy gave us a little nugget of advice: enjoy where we are because we won't be there ever again. She also taught us a lot about patience. As I sit here working on hours upon hours of my never ending to-do list of college assignments, I've come to realize where I thought I would be and where I really am.
I thought my company would be in more retail stores, but today I am working on a new business plan.
I thought I would be manufacturing bath products for the rest of my life, but today I am contemplating doing an internship with a new company.
I thought I would be engaged, but today I'm as single as ever.
I thought I would still be best friends with everyone from high school, but today I only keep in touch with one or two.
I thought I would be independent, but today I'm still as dependent - just in different ways.
I thought I would have freedom, but today I have found a different freedom than I was seeking.
I thought I would have security, but today I'm not even sure where I will be next week.
I thought I would have my life together, but today I'm still waiting to figure that out.
I'm currently backpacking through the wild journey called life. No matter what I plan for, there are always going to be bumps in the road (#cliche). The good news is that I know that what I want is not always the Lord's plan, and the Lord's plan is SO MUCH better than anything I could plan or hope for.
Just some thoughts today as I sit in a Starbucks.
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